Hope deferred maketh
the heart sick:
but when the desire cometh, it is a tree of life.
Silent Hope
I learned a truth at
younger age
Of protection in not
being;
That releasing claim
on rights or wants
Numbs life's
constant sting.
For if I have no
claim on love
Withheld leaves no
surprise
So why does silent
hope spring forth
To see love in one's
eyes?
'Tis good the Lord
still holds my heart
In His protective
care
For else it'd die so
many deaths
As each hope bails
on fare.
(11/18/08)
I truly survived by
convincing myself I was nothing more than a slave. A slave has no rights
therefore nothing can be done against a slave that is wrong. Therefore there
should be no cause for feeling hurt at what happens. It did not make all of the
hurt go away, but it cut it down by a good half. And if you don't let yourself
want anything, that want can't be held against you as punishment or
manipulation.
It is the same idea
expressed by the lead male in the dance movie Step
Up. The girl asked him what he hoped for his future and his response was
that it was safer not to hope because then it wouldn't hurt when it didn't
happen.
Loss and rejection
is hard and it becomes devastating when repeated over and over. Each time we
hope and our hope proves false can make it that much harder to try again. But
ultimately, we can't let hope go for it will prove true if we hold on long
enough. The way I sometimes had to keep it alive was to tuck it away like a
seed waiting for spring to come again and fresh ground to try once more.
No comments:
Post a Comment